Hiam Haj Ali, My Soul Still Lingers in Aleppo

Hiam Haj Ali

“My Soul Still Lingers in Aleppo”

Hiam Haj Ali was born in Aleppo where she studied French
Literature at Aleppo University. Having only finished two years of the
four-year degree, she had to stop her studies in the wake of the Syrian
Revolution in 2011. Along with some university friends, she worked as a teacher
for two years before she started working in civil society organizations. In
2016, she was forcibly displaced from Aleppo.

“I was born and bred in Aleppo. I spent my childhood, teens
  part of my youth there. I have left
but my soul still lingers in Aleppo,” she says about her relationship with the

When the 2011 uprising started, Hiam was still a secondary
school student. “Grown-ups used to treat us like we did not understand the
meaning of a revolution. On the contrary, I was personally fully aware of the
meaning of standing up against the government. I saw the terror in the eyes of
Syrians when they talked about the Assad regime. I rejected the word ‘crisis’
used by other students, usually daughters of high-ranking officials, to
describe what was happening,” she says. “Students of less-advantaged
backgrounds like us witnessed firsthand the oppression of the regime. For us, the
revolution was a promise of freedom”.

Asked about her personal motives for joining the uprising,
Hiam says, “Living in a conservative society, women’s participation in the
protests was not easy in the early days. So I tried to make a contribution away
from demonstrations and in my own way, by teaching and volunteering. As time
went by, however, the idea of the female revolutionary became more acceptable
and even welcome. This is just one positive outcome of the Syrian people’s
revolution for dignity.”

Being forcibly displaced from the city of Aleppo to the
surrounding countryside caused a psychological scar for Hiam. “Although
shelling and the siege were escalating, we always hoped for the siege to be
lifted, which happened once before. We dreamed of returning to our normal daily
routines but we never expected to be evacuated in such a hurried way,” she
says. “The noise of shooting was getting ever closer and the neighborhood was
being shelled incessantly. I was forced to pick my baby daughter and flee,
looking back in horror. Our escape from certain death was filled with fear and
a feeling of helplessness. I still can’t believe that at some points we had to
walk over another person’s dead body to continue our way. How did we even
manage to escape?”

Her “journey of death” led her to the town of Azaz, where
she had to start her life from scratch. “I sought the help of my friends and
relatives as well as my husband, in order to regain my balance and start anew.
Then I started looking for a job. It was around that time that the city of
al-Bab was liberated. I decided to move there because it was a similar
environment to Aleppo and I would find it easier to settle there. And so, I started
a new chapter of my life in al-Bab. I finished my university degree, graduated
and had my second child.”

“I have always had questions about how marginalized we were
as a people. So I started to participate in events related to the political
solution in Syria. I became convinced that I must not allow anyone else to
speak on my behalf because I can make my voice heard.”

Talking about her interest in political activism, Hiam says,
“Women are politically marginalized in our society. Until recently, even
working on building women’s capacities and empowering their political
involvement was unheard of. As for me, it all started in 2018 when a conference
was organized for women living in the northern and eastern countryside of
Aleppo and Idlib. I attended the conference and I started to learn concepts
that were new to me like women’s empowerment and political involvement.” The
conference, Hiam says, had a hostile reception locally due to misconceptions
about women’s role in society. Many believed that “a woman’s place is her home;
the only role she has is indoors.” Meanwhile, Hiam started working with several
organizations doing field research. One organization manager offered her a
volunteering position on their team in al-Bab, working on training and women’s empowerment.
It was in this organization that Hiam had her first election experience. As she
witnessed male and female members nominate themselves, she says that she “began
to understand how marginalized we were as a people.” This made her more keen on
participating in events related to the political solution in Syria. “I became
convinced that I must not allow anyone else to speak on my behalf because I can
make my voice heard.”

About the challenges facing political activism in Syria,
Hiam says, “the lack of trust between people and politicians makes it difficult
for those who have an interest in politics to start a career in this field. The
Syrian people’s life under an authoritarian regime and a single ruling party
was so traumatic that the very concept of politics became associated in their
minds with deeply-rooted skepticism.

One of the greatest difficulties facing Syrian women in
politics, Hiam adds, is the stereotypical view which limits their potential. Until
very recently, it was socially-unacceptable for a woman to express her
political views or show an interest in studying something like political
science. “It can’t be denied that some women bought into this stereotype and behaved
in the same way they were expected to behave,” Haim noted.

“Women are genuinely equal to men. We can dream
big and we can work to achieve our dreams. Pay no attention to the obstacles
because one day they will become your motivation. War, displacement, looking
after children, growing old, all these factor must not stop you from realizing
your dreams.”

Joining the Syrian Women’s Political Movement (SWPM) was an
easy decision. “I heard about the movement and its activities. It combined two
important elements for me: politics and female activism. So I applied to join
as soon as I could.”

“The SWPM helped me to know more about politics and the
world from a woman’s point of view. Many of the members were politicians and
activists who had great experience in their fields. Some were even members of the
Syrian Constitutional Committee,” she adds. “It was essential, therefore, to
have an organization such as SWPM that connects us together so that we can
network and coordinate our efforts, especially on vital issues such as the question
of detainees because this is something that is highly important for people
inside Syria.”

Hiam believes that Syrians today need to rethink their
priorities. “The famous slogan that demanded the fall of the regime back in
2011 has to change because the circumstances have changed. The parties of the
conflict are no longer the regime and the opposition. Rather, the Syrian war
has become an international battleground for multiple international players.
Today, it does not suffice to say the head of the regime, Bashar al-Assad, has
to resign. We need to demand accountability and transitional justice,” she

Her sense of responsibility towards her daughter and son
urges her to continue her political and feminist struggle. “My generation blames
the previous generations for succumbing to the regime’s oppression. By the same
token, we must not be silent; we must not back away from our revolution; and we
must not allow this regime to stay in power,” she says.

The past few years held some really trying times for Hiam. “My
injury during the shelling, the destruction of our house, watching my mother’s
face silently observing all this cruelty, the death of my sister’s three
children, these were some of the events that impacted me deeply.”

Still, these difficult years held some highlights for Hiam.
As she told us the story of her injury, she comments, “I was taken to Turkey
for treatment. I was worried that I would not be able to return. But love was
stronger than war. Love made me return to my city Aleppo and when I arrived I
felt that I was born again. The dreams of the revolution and freedom started to
grow again inside me.” Another fond memory she holds is when her two-and-a-half-year
old daughter asked her about a flag of the revolution which she was carrying.
“‘What is that?’ she asked. ‘Revolution,’ I answered. She was such a young
girl,” Hiam says, “but she appreciated the sentiments behind the flag unlike
many adults who still do not comprehend what the revolution really means.”

For the Syrian women, Hiam has a piece of advice. “Women are
genuinely equal to men. We can dream big and we can work to achieve our dreams.
Pay no attention to the obstacles because one day they will become your
motivation. War, displacement, looking after children, growing old, all these
factor must not stop you from realizing your dreams.”

Hiam says: “I have many dreams for Syria. I always think of
my seventy-year-old mother and how she lived her life under tyranny. I want my
life to be a normal life, in a country where my dignity and my freedom are protected,
a place where I can express my political views and practice my social life
without pressure. I dream also that Syrian men and women can live together
without thinking about sectarian divisions, religious privileges, regionalism,
or marginalization.”